The Wilderness Within the Mountains: Part 1

I AM MINISTRIES by Pastor Reginald

The Conversation:

Hello everyone, today I’m going to speak on seven (7) points that need be expressed, made aware of, and considered within self, prior to jumping in the space of I AM MINISITRIES, and for that matter any organization that one may feel more drawn to.

I’m doing this for a couple of reasons, first:

  • To slow down the ideological nuance of wanting to be within the space or company of I AM MINISTRIES. That is, to address ego, intentionality, and that sense of newfound excitement.
  • Provide clarity between you and I, such that expectations can be met, understood, and hopefully unified per the direction God bestowed within your heart. With that, remember I AM MINISTRIES at our least, is a reminder such that (if need be) course correction can happen with or without us. Therefore, the underline goal is for you to find your community in Christ. Again, I’m not asking you to join. I’m asking for a conversation, such that spiritual discernment can take place.
  • To remind people what the bigger picture is, because as I’ve said before, “I AM MINISTRIES is built different.”

What I’m mean by that is, I AM MINISTRIES is an anointed by God, clarified fellowshipping lifework, which provides direction and spiritual clarity to others in seek. Meaning, we are not the indoctrinated, cookie-cutter religious business most innocent souls fall for, with regard to seeking foundation in Christ.

So, let’s get into this and move mountains by addressing the three (3) main issues I’ve encountered thus far, since officially opening up.

Having said that, I’ll give a bit more content.

I’ve had many people drop off from I AM MINISTRIES within the last two years, because they didn’t understand or accept how different I as a pastor, and this ministry is.

So, those barriers which I called mountains prior, are within the beginning of the ideological separation process of dropping off. Which is expected, and totally fine, because like I said “we’re just (if need be) a course correcting reminder, such that you can hopefully find your connection in Christ, which “God bestowed within your heart” already, thereby revealing within your clarified temple, your destined path through God; not I AM MINISTRIES.

Know that we’re not trying to establish a business off of that which you don’t know intrinsically within your spirit and then claim that we are leaders guiding you to the kingdom mindset.

That’s why, within my introduction to this ministry, I’m not reciting bible scriptures, this is not Sunday bible school for toddlers. Look around, there’s much larger issues to be cleared first, as the Holy Spirit anointed me to be aware of that is, making way for the allowance of clarity and fellowship to come to pass.

Now, if all I’ve said thus far is confusing, hopefully what I’m about to say can shed some light or to the least, provide some sense of clarity, with regard to understanding self, possible disconnect, or why there may be a stumbling block, upon the path of righteousness.

So again, let’s get into this:

Mountain #1 – Epistemic injustice: This is when a speaker, interpreter, or someone in the position as a knower, (say pastor) is unfairly doubted, biasedly omitted, or ignored, because there in lies untrust or prejudice within the seeker of guidance.

Barrier #2 – Cognitive Dissonance: This is when someone feels a mental challenge or discomfort when their (preconditioned) beliefs either don’t match their actions or when two contradictory ideas are held simultaneously. This is a mental stumbling block.

Bias #3 – Spite: This is when someone’s emotional baggage is so heavy, they within their perspective, may reflect envy, ill will or hatred on someone else simply for doing their own thing whether it be their personal interests, ambitions or even anointing.

Now, that’s just surface level cognitive behavioral patterns; it’s not an exhausted list, and definitely not the worst. Only, for some, these misunderstandings create barriers, which often hinder the process of clarity, and therefore become a distraction upon the path.

So let me try to sum this up a bit (per my opinion and lived experiences).

People have hastily tried to jump into I AM MINISTRIES with what appears in their perspectives said – “God Blessed Enthusiasm,” that is, they were on fire for the lord and wanted to be fed but was looking for a small church, without all the drama, self-reflection or expectations. So, they were thrilled when I said in my second and third (off script) video “keep your tithes, you can’t buy your way into this,” but what they soon encountered was not the opportunity they assumed would be.

Which is why I referenced the previous barriers. And trust, I’m not being judgmental but more so, (as referenced) simply highlighting particular attributes identified through prudency, lived experience, and spiritual awareness; thus, noting mannerisms displayed within people who are hope-filled with intention. And thereby, acknowledging the potentially of an underlined reason for this excitement, which to be fair could simply be the season of grace they’re currently in.

So, when I’m approached within the excitement of what appears to be an opportunist, I within wisdom take into consideration, they may not fully understand or have become aware of their (potential) emotional trauma reflective of that intrinsic desire to be connected. That is, they seek to be within company, should drastically be slowed down, such that discernment can take place, per one’s level of need and or acceptance (if any).

Consider this part One of what I’ll call The Wilderness Within the Mountains.  – Pastor Reginald

Steady Your Gaze!

By all means, please avoid Judging, gossiping, and spending precious time internally questioning biased-based ideology, fear or prejudice, regarding someone else’s purpose, forward progression or spiritual anointing.   

Likened to the turtle challenged by the rabbit, it was never about the race, but rather the animosity towards another’s untethered path, unabashed and unconcerned regarding the speed of worldly ideology.  

In other words, don’t let the challenge of ego distract you from YOUR purpose. Best to steadfast your journey, least you’ll be left behind consumed in ponder. 

Trust, time is better spent within the embedment of found purpose, and not the premise of a finish line. Know that it is better to follow your own dreams, your own risk-taking challenges, failures and successes, rather than to pace someone else’s reality, because when the time comes, and you snap out of that contentious gaze of bewilderment; your finish line would be nothing more than a facade, fixed within the premise of your judgment towards others. 

– Pastor Reginald 

Worthy of Reverence 

We’re used to living in fear. No, not just we, but all. We expect it, we prepare for it and often, we create it as a measure of our behaviorisms, under the guise of survival. No matter what side one is born on, fear is experienced. Either through what is taught, perpetuated or accepted, so much so, insecurity hardens our hearts far before the epiphany renders there are no sides. For we all are in this together. But oh, that conditioned lust for fear, hexed within separation, spawning within small voice, wielding deception as motivation. Under the cloak of denial, we are of apathy, and apparently, matters not, for fear has become our bread, and the deceiver; our choice of drink. 

No? Then why are we so easily distracted? Is it because we fear the unknown, or do we crave its deception? 

Why instead of loving our neighbors, do we see them through the lens of media propaganda? Is it because it’s safer to judge from a distance rather than extend an olive branch? Know that that which wants to be revered is the deceiver, constantly at work beckoning our insecurities, such as reinforce the fear we’ve come to accept. 

We lend to fear so much; we try to characterize everything, such to fit within the ideological comforts of what we believe is normal or, even more exciting – what we fear is potentially threatening. In this, within the smallness of our understandings, we attempt to discern that which is friend, foe or even futile. Why? When even we don’t know who we – truly are. Because if we did, we wouldn’t be so easily motivated by the casting of fear upon us. We’ve become so distracted by design; we’re in awe of fearing everyone else. So much so, we’ve failed to identify the source. Who did this to us, who told you to fear all, over the one (and the way), who is truly worthy of our reverence. –  Pastor Reginald 

Happiness Requires a Shovel, not a Noun 

It’s unfortunate when people enslave themselves within the idealisms of what they think happiness is, such that one’s agency is lost within the pursuit thereof. People often become so focused on what they’ve come to accept or choose to believe regarding happiness, they fail to consider what’s behind the push, which promotes the conceptualization of trade over trust, such that one’s time is given in hopes of achieving another’s ideological means.  

I’m of the opinion that a certain status quo, holds in covenant, embodying the image of self-edification, reflective worth, and grandeur over others, establishes an achievement of security. Thereby turning life into nothing more than a daydream, rather than a gift. Know that true happiness can only be achieved through the personal sacrifices of helping others, sowing seeds of fruition, and modeling the way. Not portraying the reflective imagery of what success is suggested to be e.g., status, cars, homes, money, material things, and even so-called intelligence.   

We know this already. We know that underneath the mask, the glamour and the hustle, there remains an abyss fraught with delusions. Whereas, by its acceptance, it ushers one towards falling into the belief that showing off, rather than showing up, is perceived as established, confident and or of happiness.   

Thus, when we all know what matters most in life e.g., community, and loving thy neighbor. Only, we can’t get over the enslaved ideology of what self-worth looks like e.g., the imagery of success, the boast of greatness, and the ever-exhausting portrayal of happiness.  

Think about it, happiness is not an object, nor tangible or a sustainable belief.  Happiness is intrinsic. It was embedded within your creation, thus remaining present to date, even from your first giggle as a newborn. Therefore, it’s a choice, your choice. If and only if, you choose to allow it back into your life.  

Understand, happiness is often portrayed and packaged, likened to a commodity, but it’s not. Happiness cannot be publicly traded upon an agreed notion or ideology. It cannot be given, taught, or materially sold. As stated, happiness is an intrinsic gift, embedded within the truth of one’s creation. Therefore, It can only come from one source, which starts with making that choice to reconnect within your blessed purpose, forgiveness, and acceptance of one’s life’s work.   

Considering the idealism of what happiness is, it’s more of an accepted ideological failure. Thereby, ambiguous within codependence, and further shoveled by the deceivers, who are poised to trade your time for their fallacies. 

The result is, the unaware consistently find themselves buried under the rubble of broken promises, wishes, and marketable interests. Awaken! Climb out of the fairytales, there’s no knight in shining armor, no magic spell or kiss, and there exist no prince that can fulfill in wedlock, true happiness over the gift of God’s embedment deep within your spirit. 

If you want the true version of happiness, it starts with a choice. Next, it requires one to ignore the rhetoric, turn from distraction, and abstain from temptations. Lastly, start digging.  – Reginald 

Who Are “They?”

“They” are those, mute of intrinsic integrity. “They” remain ambiguously unknown, umbra and unidentified within the covenanted practices of sacral inequities. They seamlessly operate without regard, meaningful effort or unified collaboration within the unguarded minds, dread of embedded purpose. Those who are “they” shifts unchallenged within the impotence, fears, and vices of man’s brokenness, such that one’s temple defaults within erratic vacancy, void of soundness, thus, left unprotected and malleable within demonic influence. They are the shape shifters of one’s conscious immoral guise, readily available of any possession e.g., money, power or idolatry. “They” twist the blind minds of the abandoned, and upon degradation, they incarnate the next in line of the immorally indoctrinated, who’s rooted within the vileness of pseudo hierarchical dominance. They, who are those of no extended regard, hold no true power, rather they boast within the rhetoric and idealism of their own enslaved ideologies. Vexed in anguished, they are eager to cast their wiles upon the blind, the dogmatic, and grievously misinformed. They, who are those, are abstained from autonomy, yet gouges within the temporary glimmer of their lies, reflective upon the eyes of the blind. Thus, “they” are of the condemned, rebuttal of repentance, wrought within peril, bondage upon journey to seek out any remnant of man’s will, laid ruin within temple. “They” are the admitted legion, in which the pawns of blind, blissfully submits their power, potential, and purpose too, as we (the truth within power) remain distracted. Thus, turning from the unity of loving thy neighbor (e.g., community), as if a seat at the deceiver’s table is within human reach. 

Neighbors, the time has come to stop asking “who are they” for they are manifested and unveiled, tucked firmly behind the shadows of their pawns. In this, the question now becomes “who are we” amongst those who are “they” – who puppets, empowers, and possesses the pawns of denial with malevolent intent. – Pastor Reginald 

The Math Isn’t Mathing!

The math isn’t mathing, and you know it! Why? Because “those that are not,” fear their ideological worth is soon to be exposed. Unfortunately, instead of doing the humanly-intrinsic thing to do, they’ll cower away from asking to be forgiven, and settle within their own contentment as to foolishly believe no one notices. Thus, choosing to maintain within the comfort of their denial, hoping to camouflage their ignorance all the way to the grave; without ever atoning. This is why man’s “Earthly wisdom is blissfully overrated, and quite limited within their self-righteous achievements. Not to forget, their insatiable child-like wiles to manipulate and create the artificial e.g., food, education and so-called autonomous technological advancements – as if we need their guidance. Therefore, to be one must learn to intimately commune within the ontological spirit of God, such to navigate above the principalities of wickedness within this world. In this, eternity will be their precedence, as opposed to the indoctrinated fallacies, false ideological legacies, and sadistic trickery of their doctrines left behind.” – R. Gibson

Insatiable


 
Discernment alert! Be aware of your purpose. Yes, you call it sacrifice, but they call it lunch. Stop feeding your enemies, thinking you’re helping, when actually all you’re doing is enabling their cognitive dissonance. T

his is why my sacrifice is not an investment. I expect nothing (worldly) in return. Not from family, friends, foe or followers. This is why I say don’t follow me but rather, let’s have a conversation. Reason, if I default within the principalities of the world, I’ll not reap the spiritual powers of purpose. Such is the crux of my intent NOT to gain, convince others or exult self as an authority. Therefore, I expect not to be accepted, not to be understood or even trusted in the least, albeit the fruit of my labor is shown abound. Know that the eyes of wiles seeks only to consume, for they are devours in nature, lost within the calamity of their pseudo-entitled ideology. 
 
Therefore, regarding self, my calling will not be reduced to that of an investment, but rather an increased, per the willingness to lead by example, sacrificial only to the covenant God embedded within my spirit. 
– Reginald. 

Note To Self




No AI. No seminars or collaborations. No fancy sales pitch. No “7 steps to become wealthy” self-help book/s. Just a note to self, scribbled in the a.m. of night on the back of an overdrawn check book. That’s what it took for me to accept, humble is thy way. Never forget the pain. Embrace the fear. Own your inadequacies and beckon the faith required to rise above the brokenness of self within societal debacle. Ask not, why your enemies, for they suffer more so in the dark, thus the attack on your light. Know this, rising often starts with humility, far before ambition becomes reality. From the notes I’ve written, I’ve learned this above all, my future, is no greater than my past, because I know the power within purpose is eternal. Regardless of status, gained accolades or idealized worth, nothing will ever be greater than that which God embedded within my (our) spirit. Sometimes, the next big or best thing to do is pause, revisit the humility. Was that your calling, or was it just a note – to self? – Pastor Reginald 

Busy or Not, Here They Come 

Mathew 6:24 NIV

Look at us, are we not busy? Busy bodied, busy minded and just too busy to accept that which is embedded to fulfill our destined purposes. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed because that’s the game, behind the business of keeping people distracted with being busy e.g., unsettled, anxious and in a constant state of reaching. I’d dare to say some of us remain not, yet rather steadfast and focused, unweathered and prudent. We that are of clarity, acknowledge the water, its way and its flow e.g., the path of least resistance. And yet we that are of sight, stand in the busyness of construct, and persist resistantly up stream. 

Know this: 

“Such is camouflage, such is fear, such is the denial laid deep within the lies of yesteryear. And here we are, exhausted from what? Chasing the pseudo-crux of which way, we’re told is up? With this, pause for a minute and consider your path. Hold for another, pawns played first often finishes last. Oh, how important we’ve become, spared no expense, such is the toll of self-sacrifice newly certified bloated confidence. And people wonder why they’re busy, determined to catch up, but that which falls down (per distraction) falls down, and never falls up. Were literally panhandling in circles, selling to each other and back, worth nonexistent yet still, said worth repackaged nicely gift wrapped. We smile because they smile, so our smiles are smiles back, not smiles of genuine nature, but rather smiles we often lack. Accepted terms they are, without reading of pages, yet painstakingly check boxes, accepted perils accepted stages. Exhausted in flight, bias laws, bias might, too busy to carry one’s cross, set symbol loss of light. Dim is their way, chosen path righteous rite, but one still has choice, that is if not too busy – right?”  – Reginald